Tears To Go

So we all have dreams in our hearts, maybe we call them desires, or we could call them plans.  When we live leaning on Jesus, we can be sure that good and great abundance will be our portion in this present life and we will be rewarded eternal life, for we love Him.


^{Luke 18:29} So He said to them, “Assuredly, I say to you, there is no one who has left house or parents or brothers or wife or children, for the sake of the kingdom of God, ³⁰ who shall not receive many times more in this present time, and in the age to come eternal life.”


Why then do we shed the tears day after day, dwelling in un-satisfaction and without hope.  I believe my pride has caused me to think wrongly of my Lord and His leadership.  If He has all power and proves that my love is worth dying for, than would He not cultivate and prepare my heart in the most excellent, effective way to produce pure love in return.  Can I trust that His decisions and guidance in my life is truly best? YES, I must trust.  The One who loves me and washed me with His own blood, would not betray my best interests.  He knows the plans He has for me are good, so why don't I KNOW this?!  He is perfect, Jesus my God, my King, my trustworthy faithful witness of the heart of our Father, whose love will for all eternity bring me to higher and more glorious places of pleasure in His presence.  
Hosea 2:
 ¹⁹ “ I will betroth you to Me forever;
      Yes, I will betroth you to Me
      In righteousness and justice,
      In lovingkindness and mercy;
       ²⁰ I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness,
      And you shall know the LORD. 


So I pray Lord, that I will take my tears to you, my fears to Your feet, my desires to Your heart's fire, my dreams to faith in the unseen, Lord I give to You my hope, I put all in Your hands...Faithful and True, I love You, I trust You...
My Beautiful Bridegroom God, let me not sleep, let me feel the blessing of mourning for Your judgments and kingdom, Your nearness, Your closeness...it is surely my good!  
(Matthew 5:3-5. Matthew 9:15, Matthew 25, Psalm 119:71-73)
As I cry out, I know You hear me, God of Glory, King of the Ages, Your love that covers me is enough for all eternity.  You made the stars and You have numbered each hair on my head, so I will lie down in peace and rest on Your beautiful heart...knowing You are faithful to finish the journey of love we have set out on.  I will come to know You fully, as I am known fully by You...You see my heart and know my motives, purify my desires and give me grace to allow the refining.  Trustworthy Jesus, my Lord, release the fullness of Your Spirit, that I may arise in to glorify You.  
Amen

BlizZard

In this blizzard I have really been blessed by the Lord.  He has given me an even deeper meaning of life in the IHOP Media department, and at the house of prayer in general.  I could not drive to my sound shift today, and I was bummed, and then I began to question why? what are my motives to be upset about not getting to go to the prayer room and mix audio for a 2 hour intercession set?  There have been many times when I have dreaded going to do my duties as a media messenger? Again, I asked myself why?  Why am I moved emotionally by what I do or don't do?  If it was just another job then dreading it would make sense, so I fight off shame for feeling like that.  But there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus! So what the heck?
Then I came to the conclusion that during those times my thoughts were tempted into darkness and I went there with them, instead of remaining in the Vine.  If I abide in Jesus, and His Spirit of truth leads me, then I rejoice again and again.  Death is the dark, and life is in the Light, and in Him there is no darkness at all.  In Jesus I have eternal life.  Earthly pleasures are fleeting and deceiving.  Only what's done for Christ will stand the shaking and last forever.  Our maker made us for what matters: being loved by Him and loving Him.  The Lord showed me that what I do here at IHOP, not only put forth the webstream, but lifting up night and day prayer and worship to Him is building up great treasures as I appeal to His pleasures.  It pleases the Father that we come each day and do our part to minister to Him, no matter if 10,000 viewers see, or 10 people in the seats, our audience is One - the Holy One.
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Thank You Jesus for reminding me why I left sunny Hawaii and Vegas to come to a blizzard and be happy about it! Thank You Jesus for enabling me to love You, and myself!  Thank You God!  Thank You for choosing me to be a priest who ministers to You in this KC house of prayer as an intercessor, a media messenger, and a lovesick worshiper!  I love You Jesus and that is why I'm here, and the best part is You loved me first!  My God You loved me and You came and gave me life, taking me out of the darkness daily, and bringing me into Your marvelous Light!  I abide in the Light, the Truth, the Way - On You I wait Lord Jesus - For You I carry on in obedience and trust - and by Your grace I am saved.  Jesus is King of my heart and His victory like His love will endure in my life forever!  All glory to Him who sits on the throne, and unto the Lamb.